pity legs

The 5th day pass

my legs starting to get recover, but it so itchy

I try to control myself don't scratch it more

i afraid it will leave scar on my legs

my pity legs i love them much even my skin and cells

i love all part of my body

i love myself , so i need to take good care of it

so i need to make it pretty too^^

i wish that i could wearing short pants or skirt walking around

but now i dont dare to step out of my house

the word on my mind was theres dirt outside

i'm over thinking cause this is a really serious things for me

in my life time i wont be happen again

不再

我们不能再像从前

你说我们都错了

我们彼此都遇上错的人

我们不属于对方

但是我们相爱

对不起 我不是你想要的

我没有资格做到

你给的幸福不属于我

对不起让自己遇上了你 对不起因为我自己伤害了你

我是心痛的 但也不能弥补了

我希望你快乐 没有了我你会快乐

忙碌的星期六

一早七点就起床

冲凉 化妆

第一次拍个人相 不知道自己会不会表现好 但是觉得很酷

但摄影师迟到了 一个钟 他睡过头了

一上车 他带了好多东西

说相机配备好了

六个长架式闪光灯 一个studiolight(一个都要比普通外面的贵三倍）

背景 服装 摆设品 配备都很齐全

我们的主题是要拍一些特别的东西

已开始找的abandon house很不顺利 要不是私人的 要不就不准进入

还好最后有个地方我差点都忘了

是个不错的拍照地点

但是差点要了我的命 蚊子超多

我就像是他们的午餐 也不知道他们有没有毒

在我身上咬了几百口 我可怜的肌肤

我会补偿你们的

但也很对不起babe我知道你担心我

可是你总该信任我 我会为了你好好照顾我自己 我的承诺我会遵守

到回来 拍了很多不同的角度 不同的姿势

摄影师说好才我平时有看杂志 知道post大概怎样摆 所以还算顺利的

而且我够瘦 都是骨 就因为是骨 我的手腕和脚踝都不好看 因为骨太大了

要抓角度拍才好看

还才有摄影师的技术 拍出来的照片都好看

他说我看起来很甜美而且会放电

身形穿比基尼很好看

可是我跟他说 我的身形有很多缺点 是超多

他说我的缺点在他眼总是优点

我都掉了三条线

本来是打算隔天早上再拍的

因为时间真的不够用 带来的衣服 配备 都没用到很多

一整个下午在喂蚊子

然后傍晚要赶回来聚餐

真的好赶 想找点回家冲凉

哪个地方真的很脏

回到家冲了不到5分钟的凉就要出去了




聚餐后去了一年一度的BONＯDORI

可惜我来不及回家换YUKATA 就便装去了

好才还来得及看烟花 很久没看了

烟花的灿烂 几分钟后就消失了 所以大舅说最美的那一幕都收在眼里了



回到家 摄影师就把部分的照片传给我 我觉得漂亮 另一个不一样的自己 是个新的体验

不好才的是 隔天一睡醒 我的脚终于敏感了 好像出红疹那样 好严重

第一次那么伤害自己的皮肤 我想哭

days and weeks

the busy days and weeks started

getting tired and tired

sleepy and sleepy

things cant done well and seem everythings mess u in this moment

many events getting around many things going to happen

24hr a day is not enough for me even 48hr

my health getting worse and as well my skin function

my face look so peel but i still have a photo shoot and event celebration this saturday

its my first shooting

photographer was asked me do i dare or not to make things over

said the part of dare i do dare to do things if it was legal

hope it will be a well done in my shooting

out fit was : japanese yukata, sexy dress, beach style

recently i have been selected by some company of model and actress

its feel so fun and excited that i have been selected

we dont know things end but we hope for well

so i'll look forward to it :)

have a nice day girls

gain the way

why i try to work hard but my heart still no into it

i aim to get more better to gain more perfect

but still i make mistake even thou i have totally understanding on it

the moment started i feel so useless

i cant do anything better

how could i how would i how should i

i feel tired of it but yet still i need to fight on it

this the only way i could still gain

mad

wwhy student always do last minute job

why they never think to learn things first

why they never want to try to figure out the problem

i''m also a student i'll worry bout my lesson and studies

i would like to try and learn all things

why could others dont?

i'm not the leader

but seem i'm only the one who keep bother who keep begging

why i need to do all of this? its not only for me but us our group

i try to be patient but the feels come to me is you all feel thats was nothing

did you all really care bout it?

i care it much.. its for my like and future

i dont wanna get worse again

please warm it up i need the cooroprate

thank you

I Do

I do anything i could for you

I give anything that i have to for you

I dint wish for any appreciate word from you

just dont put any blame word to me

You and i are the same we'r human and the most is we having everthing same

every human will feel tired or anything else as i do

you put your word on yourself mention how poor are you but seem things that you done are nothing

but how am I? I same as you but i dint blame before and i do appreciated what i have

and the worse that you still dont know what you have and what you having from

its sad that i know

i love you as same as my family

I'll give all i have to you

but you and your word was breaking me and my heart

should i still keep giving to you? should i still love you as last as i love you?

Please i dont wish things turn bad

think deeply how was your life gone? anythings that you need to appreciate? anything you need to care? think it correctly

you always think out of mind, you doesnt know which the correct way you going to

i wish you to be good well and great

may god bless you

gossip girl

I think to have an cheer big fun and crazy party

invited all pretty that being invited

getting a whole night cheers with pretty babes really sound good

one in my life time i need to have this once

this my plan getting start now

get to know more pretty and get rich to book the whole club as private under my name

its like gossip girl in the upper societ

it was amazing like a dream in the night

i wish for the dream come true ^^

XOXO gossip girl

please clicks

忙

忙忙忙 最近都在忙 不过不知道自己在忙些什么

翻翻翻 最近都很烦 不过不知道自己在烦些什么

不想让自己的脑袋转 但它自己却不能停下来

这两个月的工作行程 都已经给我姐排得满满的了

再加上考试 我整个人就像熊猫那样

在想着你帮我举办的生日会 我该不该出席

但是主角怎又可能不出席呢

一整天都在想有的美的不知道会不会坏脑

我需要休息 好才这几天没有发梦

要不然我就累垮了

你说你觉得我爱你不够深

爱你不比他们来得多

我想说 对你的爱 比他们来得还要无法自拔

我爱深了 爱透了 爱得无药可救了

从前·现在

我的曾经有很多污点

你说我是坏女孩

我在学乖 已经变乖了

就像是人总说的黑总永远不能变白

我依然得不到你的信任 还是我根本不值得信任

我在努力的弥补 改变我的曾经

但我是不是就那么的不值得

谢谢你的爱 谢谢你的付出

我想的是 别为我太多

我总觉得自己不值得

今年的生日不大想过 也不想人们去记得

因为她不特别

自己长大了思想也和以前不一样了

我觉得差距好大

从前 我们一早就开始策划着那天的来临

现在 我想让人们忘了这一天的存在

简单

最近期中考

忙着做准备

但是第一颗已经烤焦了

需要更加的努力 别在胡思乱想 别再玩

这几天也在找着情侣装

因为babe想要跟我穿一样的衣服去街街

网上看了很多 但全都是预购的要不然就是厂商在国外

等到来就已经过了我的生日

本想在我生日时把你想要的当做你已过去的生日礼物送给你

当算是个补偿 所以我一定要找到

我的生日有个愿望

我告诉你想你帮我实现

可是我跟你说时机到我就会让你知道 你开始猜测了

我只想在生日当天见到你把那份礼物送给你

我觉得很开心 幸福

知道你想要帮我举办个生日会

我要的不多只要有你的心什么都好

哪怕只是个祝福语

只要是从你口中说出的我就满足了

你说你给不到我惊喜

没关系 只要简简单单的你和我 就已经足够了

babe谢谢你的爱 谢谢你的温柔

我爱你

苦口良药

第一次的考试 我烤焦了

只是用想的认为自己可以

可是不是 成功的背后一定要做些努力

光想是没有的

我是时候专心了 逼自己一下

做一次性的东西好过拖拖拉拉

书也是会过期的 所以在截止日期前把它啃了吧

苦口良药 是学生们的需要 TT

i love you loving me too

our distance seem like getting far and far

what you doin there? how was you being there?

i couldn't get a answer from your voice

and it lesser in word

do you miss me?

i miss you missing me

i understand you having your life and you should having your own free time

but i couldn't stop my mind to keep thinking

you fully in my mind no matter my mind is blank or full

its only you

it was a deep? fall in love?

you were the one can let me fall how deep i willing to be

i love you .. i love you loving me too